My first update for the month of June. For the most part nothing much has really happened. Just finishing up classes and then I'm off for the summer. I think my main goal right now is to get a job and start making money again so that I can start getting the necessary tools for constructing my music (which I haven't been able to do much of lately).

Another goal is for me is to try and start another band. I really want to put my skills to the test and compose some of the best music possible. I'm mostly open to anything, but there are some styles that I'm more interested in playing as of now. My main interest lately have been mostly forms of extreme metal, along with neo-classical metal, and Baroque period music such as Bach and Vivaldi. But honestly I just want to start playing again.

My relationship has been going pretty solid, though I wish it were just a little better. I love my girlfriend to death and I constantly let her know that (not necessarily bombard her). But things just have seemed a little strained. I feel at times like she's ignoring me for reasons unknown. It really demeans me and makes me feel that she doesn't love me anymore (though I know this not to be true and that she still does). I don't want to do anything to cause her to push me away further. I don't feel that fire that I first felt when we started going out. I want to bring that same passion that I had at the beginning. I feel as if it's my fault and I really just want things to start being the same again. I'm doing everything to hold myself together as for the last month it's overall just been difficult. If things were to fall apart now, I think I'd feel completely destroyed and that the Reaper will finally have my life.

To lighten the mood up better, I think things will progress and get better. And I'll finally be able to say I had a good year for once in my life.